Playing cards with melancholy

Hi, I'm Meg (or Marc on more masculine days) - a small gender fluid person with anxiety, who loves music, art, games, films, anime and many, many other things. English is not my native language but I'm working hard to improve it. I draw, sing and write short stories and fanfiction. Or at least I try to. I'm a silent type, an observer and a chronic melancholic with chronic headaches. You can call me whatever you want. "She", "he", "they" - I don't care.

I'm most certainly panromantic. As for my sexuality... Uh. We do not know.

I tag my text posts as "megtalks"/"marctalks" and my art things as "my art stuff" if anyone's interested.

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There are a bunch of human shaped gates in the middle of Times Square….and people are trying to fit themselves in them…..holy shit…..

The Enigma of Times Square Fault.


I would’ve been so disappointed if that image wasn’t what I thought it was.


People say it’s good to drink warm beverages in summer. Hm…

Here’s a wip!




She is so cute, why do people hate her so much?

(because she’s a black woman who doesn’t pander to the male gaze or take any shit and is just really fuckin awesome)

Nikki is a black woman who owns her own business and is making a name in a male dominated industrys but still feminine and that pisses people off lol


you’re not the only asshole here, John

based on this


When people say they don’t want their kids ‘influenced’ by seeing homosexuality portrayed on tv, in books, in public, etc, what they’re really saying is ‘if my kid isn’t straight, I want them to be too uneducated to understand so they’ll be forced to stay in the closet and it doesn’t become my responsibility to face things that make me uncomfortable’




Why do people in the Tumblr social justice community like Gordon Ramsay so much?



Gordon Ramsay is horrible.

He went on a sexist, homophobic rant about a journalist and showed a photoshopped picture of her as a cross between a naked woman and a pig.

He paid his son to install a hidden camera in his daughter’s room to keep her from having…

OKAY SO I WAS going to let this slide.  I clicked on the links, I did my own research, and frankly, I rolled my eyes.  I was like, “You know what, whatever, some people are just going to hate.”  But then a night of sleep later wouldn’t let my conscience leave it at that.

Granted, I respectfully decline the term “social justice” because, especially on tumblr, it has little to nothing to do with actual action and a lot more to do with overreaction, so take that with a grain of salt.

1) All the of “terrible things” Ramsay supposed did that were linked are gossip rag paparazzi shit.  Seriously.  Including especially, the first one where he went off the rails because he was being hounded, and including a couple more where people kept trying to set him up as looking like he was having an affair.  Calling his wife a nutbuster?  Bite me.  If my fiance cheated on me just because he was famous I’d be damn tempted to bust his nuts too, and if he called me that on tv, I’d straight out say “Oh no, I’d be much worse,” with an evil grin.

2) Ramsay is not misogynist.  He not only has helped thousands of women chefs around the world become famous, get rich, get made, get their restaurants going, fix their restaurants, learn to cook, but his main producer is also a fabulous woman.  Let’s talk about Charita Jones.  He straight out said when she was cooking fresh, the food was fabulous.  The problem was packaging, reheating, and letting other cooks come and go as they pleased in a more family run style.  With Ramsay’s help, she not only completely turned her debt around, but wound up with a CHAIN of restaurants using her as a figurehead because of her personality.  THAT IS HER CHOICE AND HOW DARE YOU DO ANYTHING LESS THAN LAUD HER FOR MAKING IT.

3) Why would anyone act like he’s a champion of the oppressed?  MAYBE BECAUSE HE FUCKING IS. In America there is a thoroughly wrong impression of Ramsay thanks to the Hell’s Kitchen hype that he’s a scary evil monster.  In reality, the chefs who volunteer for Hell’s Kitchen are arrogant little Fuckers.  I hate the show with an unholy passion, but my sister is a fan.  The men are misogynistic, arrogant, cruel, and absolute dickheads who think they can get away with being lazy because “reality tv.”  The women are frequently conniving, backstabbing, and WAY more obsessed with reality tv mindgame bullshit than -gasp- COOKING.  Ramsay comes off like a fucking SAINT in the show because he just tries to make sure that every customer who comes in the door of his restaurant(s) has a good time.  He even catches onto all the bullshit the other chefs are doing and stays the fuck out of it, or smacks them down hard for being that out of touch with reality.

Let’s talk about Kitchen Nightmares.  In Kitchen Nightmares, he runs around two different countries helping other people with their restaurants. Can you imagine another businessman traveling the country and helping out say other stores?  Seriously?  SERIOUSLY?  This is as inverse of McDonald’s as you can get.  He WELCOMES the competition from other good restaurants because he knows that more restaurants, more variety, more competition means it will teach him how to give an even better dining experience to everyone.  He knows that if Americans & British give up on casual dining restaurants, the whole world misses out.  He even had another show where he traveled the globe and to the poorest parts of India to learn everything he could and help people out. AND HE REALLY HELPS PEOPLE.  He’s like a bizarre mix of Sanji and Jesus.  His own first restaurant failed.  He took that experience and rather than just become rich and famous, he decided to help other people with it.


Because he has saved WAY more family businesses in America than even Obama’s bailout packages.  And he doesn’t give a DAMN about the person’s background, so long as they give it THEIR best.  Don’t get me wrong, he doesn’t put up with ANY fucking shit.  In France there was a woman whom he showed fifteen ways to make an absolute fortune there; provided she worked it.  HE DID ALL THE WORK HIMSELF.  Cooking, cleaning, advertising, and then gave HER that money.  And when she still didn’t want to put in the effort required, he called up her Dad in a last ditch attempt STILL TO HELP.  MORE THAN ONCE, he has used his connections and Hollywood fame to a) get young chefs GREAT jobs b) help FAMILY-RUN RESTAURANTS get new equipment, discounts on food, discounts on renovations, AND SOMETIMES EVEN STRAIGHT OUT FREE FOOD JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR PUBLICITY.  Are you SERIOUSLY going to tell me that’s not a good thing?  For fuck’s sake, he does soup kitchen work!  BLOW ME.

4) And in the course of his job, he goes WELL BEYOND the call of duty.  He plays family counselor, he plays teacher, he plays accountant, he plays marriage counselor, he has to use skills even I’m impressed he has.  He believes so strongly in helping people that he puts up with abuse that 99% of people would walk out on.  In the ads they always make it seem like Ramsay’s the one blowing up, but he’s dealt with mafia wannabes, arrogant pricks, and flat-out psychos like Amy’s Baking Company.

5) And speaking of helping the oppressed: let’s talk about Christine Ha.

Christine Ha is a blind half-Vietnamese masterchef.  When she first went on the show Masterchef, no one thought she could handle the tasks of a restaurant.  Moreover, even on the show itself she was going to have to deal with live crabs, sea urchins, and fire.  More than once, people said she couldn’t handle it without being given unfair advantages.

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She won that season.  And what’s more?  Ramsay always believed in her because he said when he was in cooking class, one of the things they always did was teach tasting with blindfolds.  He believed in her even when she didn’t believe in herself.

Ramsay’s favorite dish in the world is a Vietnamese soup he had in his tour around the world to learn more, and during that time he got stuck in a monsoon where a local woman made it for him.  He has made it a constant goal to promote Vietnamese food because SO LITTLE IS KNOWN ABOUT IT in the U.S. & U.K.  

Speaking of his goals, he not only goes around the world helping people help themselves (which is FAR more long-lasting than any charity) he also does his best to teach health on a lower budget.  The number one reason people don’t eat healthily in the U.S. & U.K. is poverty.  So Ramsay does his best NOT ONLY TO HELP THE FARMERS, but to teach people simple, cheap, and GOOD recipes that are easy to make.  He showed a bunch of nurses cheap and fast food recipes they can make on their shifts.  He showed pubs how to get back to wholesome food that isn’t so expensive.  He CONSTANTLY promotes buying LOCALLY because that’s the number one way to keep costs down, both for the restaurants, AND for the customers.

NOTHING makes him more livid than owners who are stiffing their wait staff and employees.  He could be FAR richer than he even is, but even as rich as he is, he knows how much bullshit it is to stiff waiters on tips or even just what they need to live on.  He knows because he’s been there.  He started off as wait staff in France.  So not only does Ramsay do his best to make sure the wait staff and little people are well-paid, he will rip a new one into people like Amy & her husband who stiffed their waitresses on tips.

Moreover; Ramsay’s family (father & brothers) had prison problems, and Ramsay himself was in juvie as a kid.  He got out of the “troubled life” thanks to cooking.  He not only CONSTANTLY promotes trying to teach troubled youth cooking skills to help them get a clean life, but he also knows how fucked up alcoholics can get, and he NEVER ONCE JUDGES THEM.  INSTEAD, he does EVERYTHING HE CAN TO HELP THEM turn it around and get straight.  People turn to alcohol when their life is a mess, so he does his best to clean up those portions instead.  THAT IS FOR NO OTHER REASON THAN TO HELP THEM.  AND FRANKLY? Even if it was because he got DIRECTLY PAID every time one of them turned their life around, WHO THE FUCKING FUCK CARES?! THAT IS A GREAT THING HE IS DOING, CAN YOU REALLY SAY THE SAME OF YOURSELF?

He put himself in prison as a volunteer, he takes tons of great personal risks, just to help people.  Fuck you for not acknowledging that or researching beyond gossip rag smears.

6) Since you brought up his kids; he also went on a huge campaign (ongoing) to help save sharks from finning.  It’s completely devastating the ocean ecosystem globally, and he didn’t just go “Stop finning, it’s bad,” because that’s too easy, and therefore, too god damn empty.  He went to try sharkfin soup.  He went and learned the history of it.  (Chinese emperor originally made it a royal dish only he was allowed to eat, so now it’s become a huge symbol of wealth and prosperity) He researched the economic situations of the fishermen who fin illegally.  He went on fishing trips with them.  THEN after learning all the FACTS and TRUTH he could about them, he realized the only solution was to refuse to buy it so that there wasn’t a market.  He created an alliance of restaurant owners and a Bill Clinton style campaign with stickers saying “We won’t sell or buy this, and this is why.”  All because his daughter loves sharks.

And really, REALLY, I think it’s improper to get deeply into his personal life.  That’s why it’s called “personal.”  He hasn’t had affairs, despite how easily he could, he’s not Tiger Woods, nor is Arnold Schwarzenegger groping every woman on set.  He treats women as people.  And for all that he might joke around about how nothing is less sexy than a woman with her arm up an pigeon ass all day, his wife doesn’t have to do any cooking.  He has NEVER said women shouldn’t be chefs, and indeed, SCROLL THE FUCK UP, there are more women chefs he’s helped through the years than men.  His favorite dish was by a woman.  He enters women-oriented baking contests, and cheers the woman when she wins and beats him.  Because he wants to be better himself, not just treated better, BE better.  LEARN MORE, GROW MORE, and become even better at what he does!  And let’s talk about his Mum….

She is an amazing woman.  She is why Ramsay doesn’t do affairs.  She is why Ramsay is a gentle giant.  She is why Ramsay does more charity work than I’ll wager 99.999% of the people who reblogged the Ramsay hate do.

Seriously though, fuck you.  You can hate a person all you want, but you want to know why most people act like Ramsay is a living saint?  BECAUSE HE IS A GOD DAMN GOOD PERSON WHO HAS DONE MORE GOOD FOR THE WORLD THAN MOST OTHERS ALIVE.  This world would be a LOT worse without him, and I genuinely can’t say I have enough faith in humanity to say that about most people.  Jesus said “Let he who is without sin cast the first stone,” but in this case, I’m going to flip it.  Everyone has done some shit that can be side-eyed hard.  Most people haven’t done something so amazingly good for another human being, however. If you have done more good for the world than him, THEN you can tell me all about those things and how he’s “not a good enough person to view as a hero.”  Until then, grow the fuck up.  If you only ever look for bad things about a person, that’s all you will ever find.  Including about yourself.

Ninth Doctor + Sass Master


the main character’s an asexual homoromantic superhero and has a sexy cop and bisexual magical girl for sidekicks why isn’t tumblr going fucking nuts?!



Whenever I lose a follower.



Water Cake

A Japanese bakery, Kinseiken Seika, is cooking up a storm and it’s getting all over the world wide web.

The dessert they are cooking up is the mizu shingen mochi and it is a rice cake that is made out of… you guessed it water from the Japanese Alps.

A Tweet from a customer said that the dessert “has a pleasant natural sweetness… (and) goes incredibly smoothly down your throat.” 


Water Cake-As Requested